Journal, Diary & A Little Bit Of Life

2006-11-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

now, what in the world makes me think that my appeal would ever be successful. if it was, i'll immediately leave my school and head there. i sure could use some help form above.

i wanna get out of this shithole! i just hope i can appeal successfully=/

2006-11-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

so the school finally told me that i've been retained. oh what joy, i'm so gonna celebrate and go jumping around school because i've finally got what i asked for.

2 more years in that shithole for me, now why didn't i think that it was worth celebrating?

i've got a clause attached to me retaining though, and that is to quit hockey. splendid! don't you think? the school management has once again demonstrated to everyone how much they hate hockey and the effects they think it'll bring to the students.

just splendid, three cheers for pioneer junior college anyone?

or do they want nine cheers with thirty-three claps? i'll be glad to throw in those too. and accompany those with a couple of champagne bottles, let's party and sing praises for the school for it is a place where teachers are ever-so caring and teach with patience so that the students they produce are up there with the best. let's not forget that we, the students of pioneer junior college, are supposed to be PIONEERS in the things we do.

now, let's see, who would ever have such a crazy thought. tell that to the chemistry tutors who go so fast in the syllabus like there's no tomorrow.

and the gp tutors, bitchiest bunch of people around.

oh the list just goes on and on, i'd better stop wasting my time telling everyone what a great place this is. it's just free publicity for the school

I LOVE YOU, PIONEER JUNIOR COLLEGE! YOU ARE THE PLACE WHERE PEOPLE ULTIMATELY SCREW THEIR LIVES UP AND GO TO POLYTECHNICS AFTER THEIR A LEVELS.

sweet sweet praises=D

2006-11-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

life's been good so far since the last time i blogged, and i do mean really good. it's never been better.

gonna get retained though. my promotional status is pending and, really, i don't hold high hopes.
but i want to get retained, my results are far too lousy already. i don't want to get promoted and screw up my A levels later. i would be glad to retain, so lin kui fong, please do me a favour and recommend to the principal that she have me retained. be nice for once.

hockey training started a couple of weeks ago, and it has been good. tough but good, though hiap does get unreasonable at times, getting all pissed off at certain things that doesn't really matter that much at all. but i still think that we can go really far next year under him.

oh well, hockey training tomorrow. hope we'll do better against jwss, well at least better than the last match.

prata at upper thomson for lunch tomorrow baby, oh you're so gonna love it=D

2006-11-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

after a thousand, million, trillion, gazillion + 23299479249274 years, i've finally decided to update my blog again.

it's been so, so long, but i'm back.

hello again, people! =)

2006-08-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

burning midnight oit tonight.

i want to score an A for tomorrow's chem test! wish me luck.

i so want to do well for all my tests and i need to buck up for econs and history already.

gonna meet my targets for promos.

2006-08-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

i am exhausted and i feel so, so drained. i want to just let go of everything, to just freefall into the abyss. forever. a never-ending fall. so that i can just close my eyes and let gravity take care of everything.

and how i wish i could fall into a deep slumber and never wake up. so that i could just live in a perfect place i so yearn. a place where i would never ever be so exhausted. a place where i would never lose my sanity.

i need salvation.

2006-08-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

countdown: exactly 6 weeks

yes, 6 weeks from now i shall be taking my promotional exams. for the others, i guess, it'll just be another paper. they'll just have to pass it and they'll have safe passage into the second year of their pre-university education.

for me, this'll be the biggest examination in my life. much bigger than the o levels, i must say.

reason? it'll be this paper that actually determines whether i can stay in college or not.

i don't want to retain, i don't want to get kicked out and i want to promote. just like the others.

but yet.

that prospect seems pretty grim. i know, the others have been motivating me and giving me encouragement. especially you and i want to prove to everyone that i've seen my mistakes and i want to atone for my mistakes.

i want to do this right. for my parents, for my family, for you and most importantly, for myself.

i don't know how to describe this. but i feel so, so drained. never in my life have i felt like this.

maybe it's just what i deserve for my attitude. who would've known that things would have escalated to such a scale.

i am on the verge. i am treading on a very, very thin line. and my luck has finally run out.

it's like what my dad told me. i have to wait till the gun is pointed right at my face before i realise what is right.

of course, there are positives that i can look to in my life now.

but.

why is it that i never learn from my mistakes?

why is it that i must always wait till the last minute?

2006-08-13T18:26:00.000+08:00

I AM SO GONNA FAIL TOMORROW'S ECONS COMMON TEST! =(

2006-08-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

had a little catch-up session with ms venessa toh the other night. and i tell you, we still had so much to talk about.

no wonder we used to be such close friends. best friends in fact. i guess it's like what she said, "maybe if the connection is there, it will always be. that's why we clicked and were besties".

hmm, reminded me of all the fun times we had. come out for a movie with the other guys sometime soon alright?

heard that there were some differences within their clique and, apparently, the clique has been reduced to chao wei, gabriel, eng kai and venessa. oh, plus chye tee too. i don't really know what happened, but i still know a little bit of what happened. and ms toh, I TOLD YOU SO! i hope she doesn't read this. or else i'm ohh so gonna get killed.

it's sad things turned out to be like this for them. but i guess, certain people change and certain people make mistakes and friends are made and lost in the process. but i hope to see their clique all reunited again. kelvin, eng kai, weikok, chao wei, gabriel, venessa and chye tee.

so ms toh, please go do something about it. the next time i talk to you i want to hear kelvin and weikok back in your clique okay? haha. alright gotta go mug now. the promos are almost in my face already=(

2006-08-13T02:14:00.000+08:00

just got off the phone and it's like 430 in the morning now. it was so damn nice talking to you! =D

mugging at kap again and fireworks at esplanade.

very productive. and i managed to do up half of my personal notes for reaction kinetics, although much of it was copied directly from my lecture notes.

shopping at westmall was nice today. both of us finally got the same pair of shoes after a week's wait. brown converse sneakers and i swear they're the nicest pair anyone has ever seen.

met xue er at orchard mrt before going down to the esplanade for fireworks. the fireworks were great! and the entire time was just perfect. but i tell you, squeezing through crowds is not an experience i will want to remember.

dinner at mos burger was not bad, but it was without shah though. he left with nurul (did i spell that right?) and the both of them are awfully compatible.

xue er and sam took 960 home then i met up with her and both of us cabbed home together. it was nice, i tell you, and you really don't know the places in singapore well! okay, maybe you're really blind in the night. haha.

ohh well, today's been a good day overall, nothing bad happening at all today. major mugging again tomorrow at home and i'll still have to finish that bloody lit review for the written report, even though i've an important econs lecture test on monday which i've yet to start studying.

can't that bitch just get off my back? she's so frigging irritating! and i hope she does read this and do some self-reflection. NO ONE LIKES YOU, FOR PETE'S SAKE! YOU BIATCH! CAN YOU JUST DO MANKIND A FAVOUR AND GO SHOOT YOURSELF? AND GIVE US ALL A CHANCE TO REJOICE OVER YOUR DEMISE. ohh and by the way, have i told you that your hair looks worse than a lion's mane? JUST GO SHAVE YOUR HEAD BALD LUHH. FUGGING BIATCH.

2006-08-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

mugging at kap today was rather productive, for the first half of the day.

but i guess it's just my off day today. only managed to finish section a and b of e mcq after sitting from 10 to 7. so, yes you can say that it wasn't not productive at all.

kap is just so crowded nowadays that it is no longer conducive already. though it's still quite alright. i missed the times when kap was super quiet and super empty. i guess it's just because it's the A and O level season.

anyway, dinner at al-azhar was good today. pratas galore and the paper prata sucked! totally tasted like kleenex luhh. but oh well, dinner was still good. and you are not fat pleasee! =P

left al-azhar at 10 and yes, ten dollars a day is insufficient! i'm beginning to count down already. friday had better be a short day.

2006-08-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

the trip to kiddy palace today. how amusing pleasee.

like we've never seen pink sandals before.

shades and soft toys, though mine's pink and his is blue.

ahmad was supposed to be on the other side being amused by the lego with me. but somehow sam decided to take me only, on purpose of course. -.-

2006-08-10T02:18:00.000+08:00

mugging at kap today was quite conducive. and although i managed to finish my reaction kinetic notes, i only understand half of it's contents. i still need tuition from you.

missed the fireworks totally. sam, ahmad, xue er and i only managed to catch the last few "booms" of the fireworks. saddening pleasee.

went up the pan pacific lift. it's been almost 10 years since i've last been on that thing. so you could imagine the nostalgia when i was on it.

walked around marina square a little and the whole time was damn amusing can! after awhile maio came and xue er left. air of awkward-ness.

oh and did i mention we bumped into audrey and nut?

dinner at carl's jr was good. I FINALLY GOT MY HANDS ON CARL'S JR! and the burger was colossal, i tell you. surprisingly i finished the entire thing. together with the fries and the huge drink i had.

i have serious doubts on how i am going to wake up at 8.30 tomorrow. mugging at kap with sam, shah and ahmad tomorrow and i'm supposed to be meeting them at 9 tomorrow! i'm so gonna be late again.

fireworks and converse shoes this saturday and i'm so frigging looking forward to it. let's stand by the dustbin with our new shoes on and throw our unwanted old pair away okay!

2006-08-08T02:36:00.000+08:00

i've gotten another new stick! this time it's a vampire wooden one. 25 dollars, what a bargain right? johann, shunting, sam and i all got it together.

my vampire

my vijayanti and my vampire

my retired diana

2006-08-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

lake house and studying on sunday totally rocked!

sandra bullock was still able to look reasonable despite her age and someone was head over heels for keanu reeves.

dinner at coffee bean was amusing! so much cheese! and silei, thanks for telling me to add smoked salmon to my caesar's salad. it tasted good!

studying was ultra conducive and for the first time, i didn't freeze at coffee bean although i was wearing only a t-shirt and shorts.

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow. national day celebrations and after that, MUGGING!

oh and trust me, you aren't fat. and yes, nydc cakes rock!!

2006-08-08T02:10:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting here, half-updating and half-doing my econs essay and it's like bloody 2 am. i am so gonna fail thanks to FM!

anyway, the past weekend was good. soccer at long, long last on saturday and i'm very surprised that i'm still able to play goalkeeper well! scored 2, but the best part was still being goalkeeper. and i just realised how much i missed soccer after that day.

went down to coffee bean to mug with casso and swee siong after soccer. roast chicken and mushroom fusili rocks, i tell you. we were eventually chased out of the place when it started to get crowded because some of the customers couldn't get a place to have their meal.

but it didn't matter anyway, because casso and i ended up studying at mcdonald's. left the place at 6.45 for delta. we met shaminah on the way on the train.

singapore vs india (women's match) was good. singapore played better than they did against japan. BUT, they were still routed 6-0. no matter, there's still hope for the future of singapore hockey. bumped into matthew and pseudo-sam there along with the pj girls' team there.

oh and did i mention that the really hot girl was there too. haha. she totally turned heads on friday! it was so amusing. cheeping and i were just laughing at the entire team on friday!

anyway, shaminah managed to catch up with some of her crescent classmates there. two of them were in singapore hockey. how cool is that? she has friends who are national hockers!

ohh well, hockey is fun and shaminah, you should just quit netball and join hockey! i'm so glad i took this sport up.

2006-08-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

let's see.

school
study
eat
sleep

that's all i can think of. shucks, i just realised that i'm so frigging random.

2006-08-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

the thought that everyone else is training and playing while you're studying sucks.

i am so gonna suck after the promos. not that my skills are very good now.

2006-08-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

my life has become a fucking routine and i hate it.

i just so wish i could just pull the trigger on myself now and end this miserable life of mine.

i seriously need a breather from all this.

i hate it all. and i fucking hate myself for letting all the shit happen.

and i'm feeling frigging emo now.

2006-07-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

i met the principal today with my dad. all i can say is that i finally understand why she's a lousy principal.

i've been lectured by several principals and, frankly speaking, our principal sucks big time. and i do mean BIG TIME.

not just her diction, but also the way she handled the meeting with my dad just now and the way she put people down. i mean, it was supposed to be an encouraging "meet-the-parent" session. but it turned out to be a disaster.

her remarks made of me and the warnings she gave me all just struck through me like a bullet which just pierced through my heart.

for once, i felt discouraged.

and it didn't help with that dumb bitch smirking away just next to me. i so hate your hypocrisy and pretense, not to mention your unprofessionalism. your existence, in my opinion, is just one big mistake.

ohh and please, stop having prejudices against the hockey boys, will you? i know that the hockey boys have been giving trouble to the school traditionally, but that is no reason for you to threaten to close us down. and i would not be drawn into complaining about my suspension, i saw it coming a long time ago.

well, the meeting was a fruitful one. i guess i finally saw how lousy our principal was and how discouraging she was. if you want your students to do well and realise their mistakes, you do not put them down so harshly and make them think that they are the lowest beings in this world! you just suck for a principal, ask the senior students (J2s and retainees) and you'll know what i mean.

i'm so gonna prove all of you wrong. just wait and see.

2006-07-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

from today onwards, i shall denounce my social life.

there will still be the occasional movies and hockey matches. but besides that, i guess i'll just have to devote my time to preparing for my promos.

i just can't afford to get kicked out of the system at the end of the year or retain. yes, this is a rather daunting task, given the amount of time i have left. but i do hope that my hard work will pay off.

please give me a miracle. i need it so, so badly.

2006-07-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

maybe i should just end this dream of mine. it will never ever work out and i should just listen to what they advice me to do.

there i go again, some might say, not having opinions of my own and being easily swayed by what others have to say. but the signs are there for me to see myself too.

ohh well, i don't want to be bothered by this. i can't afford to. i'm treading on a very thin line now and i'm on the verge of getting kicked out of college.

i guess i'll really need to reflect upon my conduct and my studies. i just have to promote and i'll bloody well shove my results into your face, you bitch. thanks for the smirk today, now i have more reason to prove to you that i can make it to J2 next year.

i just hope they're all wrong about you, but i guess, i am the one who's wrong about things. when everyone who can see things much more clearly than me say that things are so, i just have no reason to doubt them.

it's gonna be a tough decision, but things seem to be that way. i'll just have to stop fooling myself already. and just wake up from my dream.

2006-07-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

my dad hasn't been so sarcastic for a long time already=)

tomorrow my dad'll be going down to see the principal together with me and, of course, the bitch'll be there too. i am so gonna get killed after tomorrow, today's probably just a rehearsal of the worse things to come.

and i just can't stand the hypocrisy and self-consciousness of that woman already. when the hell is the other class writing that damn petition! i want to have my signature on it!

you really should just tender your resignation and end your teaching career, you sick bitch! well that's probably what you should have done a long, long time ago. don't you get it at all? the entire class hates you! so can you just fuck off and die? please? for the good of all mankind. I IMPLORE YOU!

2006-07-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

tutorial 2r test today was easy! full marks already! =D

yes and casso and nessa, i hope you guys did well for yours. casso, i hope that the little tuition i gave you yesterday worked. nessa, can pass one! the test was super-duper easy!

coffee bean mugging yesterday with ss, casso and nessa, super conducive. let's go there to mug again sometime soon casso!

and yes, i bumped into her there at coffee bean! whee! finally got to talk to her! nicee!=D next thursday pirates okay! =P

visit to pulau tekong tomorrow. to the bmtc. horriblee! can i not go? i'm gonna be in that place in another one and a half years time. i'd rather mug in school and go for training. gonna be a totally useless trip=(

ohh and on thursday, my parents will be in school to see the principal. how nice! i can picture myself dead on that day. maybe i should just go purchase a coffin now. =)

gonna do AQ now. it sucks big time pleasee! i don't wanna do it! =(

2006-07-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

this week has been a good one so far, even though only monday and tuesday have passed. BUT, last week has been shit! so this week has still been alright.

what's been happening last week:
1. slept during gp lessons and that bitch had to call my dad and send him an email just to tell him that i slept in class
2. i was sent to chua poh teck because i was defiant in my tone when i answered the bitch
3. patrick tong threatened to give me the red form just because i didn't tuck in my shirt and because i showed defiance to him (for those who didn't know, red form = you're expelled from school!)
4. quarrelled with my parents everyday
5. lots and lots of undone tutorials
6. couldn't get anything right during training

so do you know why i say that this week has been good so far? no teachers bothering me, lim chee wan's in a good mood, i can finally pay attention during tutorials and i did well for my maths test today!

i feel so proud of myself! maybe being an obedient student isn't such a bad thing after all. at least, it'll get all those irritating teachers off my back! =)

2006-07-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

i've got fucking irritating parents=(

2006-07-16T05:12:00.000+08:00

battle of the bands rocked shit! too bad shah's band couldn't make it to the semis, they rocked shit too man!

i frigging hate school for some reason and it's not helping that i have no idea at all on how to do the organic chem tutorial, which is why i'm so frigging screwed on monday.

i'm finally getting my vijayanti wooden stick!

you look so damn cute when you're studying!

and al-azhar's chicken murtabak is frigging lousy.

ohh man, i'm just getting so frigging emo and random nowadays, i can just go and die.

2006-07-16T04:29:00.000+08:00

my entries are coming in like once every fortnight, not the usual daily blogger i used to be. laziness just seemed to creep in after awhile and this is the best i can manage.

okay let's see now, this week has been a more or less a rough one. went through an emotional roller coaster. nessa's been telling me the awfully harsh truth about alot of things. well, ever since i told her all those stuff, she's been telling me what she thought about it. hmm, not everything was pleasant to hear though. BUT, sometimes the truth just isn't pleasant to hear at all.

we've been talking quite alot now, well, much more than before. and that is nice! the only sad thing is that it's never on the phone or face-to-face. nope i'm not referring to nessa, i get alot of crap from nessa all the time! (shit i forgot she reads my blog) haha kidding! well, i was referring to someone else. it's a shame that we couldn't meet up that day. let's meet up soon okae!

anyway took some pictures on my adventures this week.

notice what's written there?

my first ever yoshinoya meal, but it will be the last.

just a little bonding session we were having.

i just felt so frigging emo the entire week ever since monday! i fear i may be suffering from depression. alright kidding. not so serious at all luhh. school sucks big time!

2006-07-16T04:09:00.000+08:00

if i haven't remembered wrongly, i've gotten back all my remaining term eams results. HORRENDOUSLY DONE!!! i have no idea how i am going to break the news to my parents. they'll definitely go into a fit, i tell you. a horrible but true fact.

let's see now, the first paper i got back was my math paper and it was 16/65 which is like ungraded. the second one was my chemistry paper, 21.5/80, another ungraded. then it was economics, 15/i forgot what, it was still ungraded. finally, history, 6/25, the fourth ungraded subject. well for general paper, i got a complete shock, E grade! you could have imagined the anguish! A for chinese, nothing to celebrate.

so the verdict: AEUUUU. pretty terrible results. it'll take me a miracle to actually achieve my promos target: B for general paper, math, chemistry, history and economics and A for chinese. i need to get promoted! no polytechnic education for me. it's the A levels next year and straight As!

i've found motivation to work hard.

2006-07-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

GG LUHH!!! i got my maths paper back today and, as expected, i screwed it up big time! 16/65 =( how am i going to tell my parents about this?! i am so, so dead..

today's totally fucked and that's a total understatement pleasee. first, i was woken up by my dad at 10.30. he was practically yelling in my face! well, apparently, mdm lin called him and told him that i had that stupid pw workshop today. yes, i had already intended to pon in the beginning. and it didn't help when she started bitching about my bad stuff in class. of course, my dad demanded that i go to school. I FUCKING HATE THAT BITCH!! and my dad was equally jumpy about it. fuck it!

well, luckily i went to the movies just now. with nessa and mikhail. at least there's something good that happened today.

i'm so frigging screwed!! =(

2006-07-06T03:26:00.000+08:00

for all your bar chor mee and te kua needs, please visit www.mrbrown.com. =)

2006-07-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

extreme satisfaction today! after the mother tongue oral exam, went sakae-ing with mikhail, jess and nessa. at long, long last! it's been like 2 years, i think, since i had so much sushi! i think i had 10+ to 20 plates, one cha soba and one chawanmushi. BURP! BUT it was satisfying. =)

ohh yes! nessa brought along her kc yearbook today. whee! it's so much fun looking at the yearbooks of others luhh. =D

and please, don't talk to me about the oral exam! totally screwed up. the passage was still alright, manageable. but the conversation part totally sucked. some stupid question about what i thought about people who talk really loudly with their handphones in public. WTF KIND OF QUESTION WAS THAT?! shit, and it didn't help when i kept pausing randomly between words with all the "lors" and the "lahs". wth. i'm totally screwed this time round. =(

2006-06-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

somehow, i've been tagged to do this. yes, i'm not really sure but here goes!

rules:
- do the following without complains.
- choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours.
- leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.
- start your post by 'i have been tagged' then do this.

your 10 favourites:
favourite colour: orange/yellow(both are about the same right?)
favourite food: cookies!
favourite movies: no preference but lord of the rings (all three) has been top spot
favourite sports: soccer and hockey!
favourite season: snow-filled winter
favourite day of the week: fridays
favourite ice cream flavour: cookies and cream!
favourite countries: argentina and england
favourite things: gosh, it should be my clothes

your 9 currents:
current mood: depressed due to tomorrow's econs paper
current clothes: some cheap nike imitation and a very aged pair of lotto shorts
current desktop: working alright, though it does crank out once in awhile
current toe nails: fine as they are
removed-time: i have no frigging idea what that is
current annoyance: i'm gonna flunk my mid years nicely
current thought: gosh! how i wish friday's just tomorrow
current song: the last sunrise by Aiden (wooo)
current chatter: none, everyone's busy mugging

your 8 first:
first best friend: sng ren zheng (one f****** bastard) MUAHAHA
first crush: urm. yim hui? i'm not even sure whether that was a crush
first movie: ohh land before time! (how i miss that show)
first piercing: i have none -.-
first lie: kindergarten 2, i forgot what it was already!
first music: blink 182! =D
first car: my dad's honda integra
first cry: 4th may 1989

your 7 lasts:
last cigarette: there wasn't even a first to start with
last drink: at my cousin's wedding
last car ride: just this afternoon on the bus!
last crush: -sshh-
last movie seen: she's the man. amanda bynes was hot i tell you
last phone call: 5 minutes ago with my dad
last CD played: some cd i burnt for my brother a year ago

6 have you evers:
have you ever date one of your bestfriend: nopee
have you ever broken the laws: yeah if chewing gum is considered an illegal act
have you ever been on TV: never ever!
have you ever kiss some one that u don't know: nah

5 things that you are wearing:
1. cheap nike imitation
2. aged lotto shorts
3,4,5. i have no idea what else

4 things you had done today:
1. screwed up my maths paper
2. played battle for middle earth
3. cramp some econs facts into this already bulging head of mine
4. nap in the school library

3 things you hear right now:
1. Aiden! =DD
2. my air conditioner
3. my typing noises

2 things you can't live without:
1. sex! kidding! my friends
2. my handphone

1 thing you do when you are bored:
1. stone and blast some songs into my already half-deaf ears

5 people i tag to do this:
1, 2, 3, 4, 5: i don't know! whoever's interested just do it!

phew! finally! this took up almost half an hour to do! gosh i need to go to my econs notes now! tomorrow's another day i'm gonna dieee=(

examinations=)

2006-06-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

yes, in exactly a week, the mid-years will begin!

how exciting! i've been looking forward to that time ever since the start of the year! YAY! =D

world cup fever

2006-06-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

the world cup has totally screwed up my routine for this holidays! the matches are all from 9-5 and if i really do watch all 3 matches of the day, then there'll be no way for me to study at all the next day!

okay, complaints aside. this world cup has been quite boring! except for one or two matches here and there, the rest have been stalemates. france and brazil totally suck this time round! can the brazilian coach just place ronaldo on the bench! yes, he was the hero during the last world cup. BUT, let's not forget that was the last world cup.

and henry! he has been so good for arsenal, but totally lousy for france! yes he finally scored last night, but it was a totally scrappy goal and the match ended 1-1. sighs, both countries can just go and die lah.

ohh well, england and argentina have been playing well so far. so it doesn't really matter whether or not the rest are playing well! =D

darn! i need to start winning money! i've been losing quite badly even though i've won my bets on one or two matches. sighs!

the wedding day

2006-06-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

a big congratulations to soh cheong hian, he is finally married! which was why my entire weekend was gone! the best thing was that it had to coincide with the opening day of the world cup. -.-

since we had to wake up by six the next morning and the last match would end by five, we decided not to sleep at all. it was crazy, considering the fact that i was going to have a long, long day and that hockey match in between. ohh well, the world cup comes first! so yes, everyone could tell that i was just zombified the entire morning!

ohh well, at least i still had my red bull for the alumni match. the alumni match was not too bad, saw a few of the seniors whom i've never seen before, but we all played alright against them. it was quite a surprise to see leonard there. yes, the ac superstar leonard. apparently he was shah's friend or something like that, i'm not sure what. but he's good, and he's very fast.

after the match, i had to rush down to jurong point to get the pair of shoes back from renkiat. it's been a long, long time since i saw him already. but sadly, we didn't really have the time to catch up.

back home, i had to rush like mad because i was late already! we were supposed to reach the place by 630 and i reached home only at 545. so after some bustling here and there, we were off on our way.

the entire time was just like any other wedding. food, booze, relatives catching up with one another and the as-usual "yam seng" sessions. the only difference this time was that the few of us had to go around shepherding the guests to get into positions to have their photos taken with the groom and bride. not too bad, quite fun actually, but some people can really just piss you off! they don't want to move at all! urgh!

well, congratulations to cheong hian. after the dinner, we didn't go hang out as planned. everyone was just too tired. so we all just went home and just pigged! -_-zzzz and i really did sleep to my fill i tell you. woke up only at 5 the next day! the aftermath of going sleepless for 46 hours. =)

according to my mum, i was a little tipsy after the dinner. must've been that XO-martell-heineken-sprite-wine drink(meant for the groom) i drank.

a summation

2006-06-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

let's see.

retail therapy
new shoes
new shirt
new haircut
no size for mecurial vapour street! =(
no mugging =)
world cup pay-per-view finally done =D
d-day for rooney

hmm, not a bad day today at all. X) okay, but tomorrow, mugging shall resume! =

studious

2006-06-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

thanks to swee siong (you'd better appreciate this), i could kickstart my mugging! started my little "mugging season" on sunday. went over to jurong library during the evening to meet swee siong to study. not much studying done, but of course i did manage to accomplish a little bit by completing half of my differentiation tutorial!

well, yesterday was hardcore. in a way lah. met up with swee siong at kap at 1130. well, i was late again! but we changed our plans and we decided not to study at kap. reason? cause swee siong said that there were too many people there and that it was super un-conducive. so we decided to go over to the library in np. quite convenient for him, i guess, cause he was supposed to have a test at 330. but guess what. from 12 all the way to 330, i was the only one mugging in the "cubicle" next to him cause he was sleeping all the way!

ohh and the np library was HUMONGOUS! i tell you. i guess there were about like 4-5 stories (correct me if i'm wrong...anyone) and you can just imagine the amount of books they have in there! whoa! the place was super cool! not a bad place to study too! conducive. haha. i'm some chao crasher lah.

well, 330 came and swee siong went for his test. so i just decided to take a break and went shopping for nessa's obs stuff. then after that met up with swee siong again. we had dinner and went to jurong library to continue studying. but it didn't last long and both of us went home at 630. apparently we only had 3 hours of sleep each, totally drained.

woke up at 530 today! had only 3 hours of sleep again cause i slept at 230 again! gosh, i need to start sleeping early again before i screw up my body clock and get myself into trouble when school starts.

reached pj at 630 to pass nessa her stuff. well, i realised it was quite dumb for me to reach so early because apparently she had just left her place when i reached pj! -.- lucky zur was there. so i passed her the stuff to pass to nessa later on. saw sam, quek, deya and ahmad a little later on. all of them were going for obs! how lucky lah! anyway, left pj at 715 and i bumped into hazwani (did i get that right) and shaminah at the gate. i really hate talking to them when they're together cause i feel really, really short!

after leaving pj, i made my way to kap. gonna meet swee siong to mug! fwahaha. i'm like some crazy bugger lah. going to kap at 8 in the morning to mug. ohh well, it wasn't too bad. in fact it was quite conducive until after 11 when the lunch crowd from np, mgs, hci, etc started to pour in. mugged all the way till 130 and then i decided to go home for my maths tuition. but guess what, i saw dee and huijun! and the best part was that they were sitting right behind me and i didn't realise it at all! they still look the same and huijun made e jj uniform look like the hci one. haha. well, i didn't know venessa was there too, until dee told me about it. didn't have the time to catch up with them cause i was running late already.

ohh well, i'm glad that i'm beginning to mug again. gotta really, really work hard already! but the sad part is that swee siong's not gonna mug anymore after this week cause apparently his holidays will start next week and friday will be his last test day! sighs, it's alright, guess i'll just find some other people to mug with!

but i guess i'll be taking the day off tomorrow! gonna go get that shirt for saturday(my cous's wedding!) and new shoes and get my fugly hair cut(though it's still quite short. fwahaha.)! but most importantly, i'm getting my world cup pay-per-view done tomorrow! alright man! =D

argh!
why is it bothering me so much?!
why can't i just frigging get over it?!
this fucking sucks man! =(

mugging

2006-06-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

finally, at long last i'm starting to mug for my mid-years! phew! there's still time to really work hard for my Cs! okay, i seriously hope i get a C for all my subs and nothing less. it's the mid-years that i'm hoping will pull my grades up.

heard that the end of year exams can be quite a killer. die!! hope i don't scrap through this year. i must do well and prove the teachers wrong about me and hockey boys. fwahaha.

bbss dinner and the times

2006-06-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

just came back from the bbss dinner! well, i wouldn't really say that i've totally wasted my 30 bucks, but well, it was still quite a waste of money. guess it was more for the old-timers who graduated like 5, 10 years ago. after all, those who really enjoyed themselves were those over 25!

well, the food was a total disaster! not that it sucked big time, but it was really quite horrible! hmm, but what can we expect? after all, we paid only 30 bucks. =P ohh well, i did managed to see and catch up with some of the juniors and people whom i knew back in bbss. ahh, the nostalgia.

of course, i met up with kelvin and the gang. the people i used to hang out with back then. well, you might ask why i'd use "hang out with back then". simple, it's just because i don't hang out with them any longer. i don't really know why too. i guess it's just because we're all leading different lives now and that we've drifted apart.

hmm, but of course most of them still hang out with one another. even though ek's at dover, nic's at SP and chye tee's at PJC, they still hang out with each other and the bond is still there. it's just simply me who has drifted apart with them. i guess i can't blame anyone, the problem, i think, just lies with me. i don't really know what actually happened too. but everything seemed alrite just now. is it me or is it just that i think too much?

or is it because i felt awkward just now? well, i guess i felt awkward just now cause she was there. i guess some might know who it is. ohh well, i don't really know why i should've felt awkward at all. but i guess it's just that everything changed too abruptly, so abrupt that i myself don't know why things became like that. which is why i feel so, so awkward when i saw her just now.

ohh well, i guess this is what happens when the lives of people change. friendships change, people change. just another part of life we all experience. but i've really had great friends back in bbss and i know that i wouldn't be here had it not been for them. it's sad that our lives have changed quite drastically and things probably would not be the same as they were anymore. but hey, we're all still friends. so yes, i really want to thank them and hope for all the best for them.

the holidays

2006-06-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

it's been almost half a month since i came online to update my blog already. hmm, it's funny how i've become so lazy to come online to update my blog.

ohh well, nothing much has happened so far. the only good thing is that the holidays are here! =D but it's not really a time for me to slack though. i'm gonna list down the stuff that i need to accomplish during this holidays.

1) mug and understand all the topics for the mid-years
2) finish all the maths and chemistry tutorials i have
3) try and memorise everything about the cold war in europe
4) make sense of the econs notes and practise the skills for essay writing
5) try and improve on my drumming
6) improve my basics for hockey (especially the stickwork part)
7) watch every match of the world cup (yeah baby!)

well, that's basically what i have to accomplish for this holidays. quite alot right? i guess if i accomplish 1-4, then i'll probably not have time for the rest already! =(

i've got to get it out of my head

2006-05-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

i really, really need to stop hating my life in pioneer. well, not that i hate it, but it's just that i regret not taking up the option. it was placed nicely in front of me, all i had to do was to put that college as my 1st choice and appeal, then i would have been in that place. and the best thing is that, i would have been in soccer!

well, of course if i had been in there, i would have been in that class. and i guess life would have been much, much more fun! =( ohh well, looks like i'm not the only one who gave up the opportunity to get in there.

well, i guess i'm in pioneer for a reason. at least there are still the hockey people, the ex-a05 and current a04 people and all the other people i know there.

it's like what this used-to-be good friend of mine used to always tell me. "sometimes, the best thing are the things we can't get".

i can't really remember whether it was like that, but i remember that it was something like that. so yes, pioneer is a very good place and i am happy to be there! =)

i really gotta stop visiting that blog, but i just can't help it! =(

Birthday!

2006-05-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

i turned 17 two days ago! which was the 4th of may! ohh well, it was a good day (besides that sickening test, which i think i'll flunk big time, and be the last in the level again). i was actually quite surprised that people knew that it was my birthday! people besides izzah and the rest of course. and i really, really wanna thank everyone! appreciated it guys!

of course, the entire day of my birthday was spent studying for that dumbfuck chemistry test on atomic structure and chemical bonding. and you know what's the really sucky thing? i totally missed the atomic structure lessons and lectures because while i was still in arts, they had already finished teaching that topic! kinda dumb right? spending my entire birthday studying for some chemistry test which i eventually failed from the looks of my answers. =(

anyway, swee siong came! at about one-fifteen i guess. so we waited till 2 for izzah and went out for lunch together! it was great and it's been a long, long time since we had lunch together already! but after lunch, we did something really retarded. we took a cab from the mc's at cckcc back to pioneer. and the trip costed s 2.50. and this was because both swee siong and izzah didn't want to walk in the drizzle! -_-

then at about 5, izzah and zur told me that i HAVE to complete that amazing race thing! and i felt so bad because they've placed so much efforts on it! thanks guys=) so i decided to try and complete it. well, guess what? i managed to complete all the way from the 2nd clue to the 11th one within 30 minutes! efficient huh?

then came the chemistry test. i shan't go into details because, from the way i did the paper, i'll definitely flunk the test BIG TIME! ohh well, after the test, i went over and started to ask about the test! the guys (hockey) all seemed very confident about it even though shah said there was not enough time. but the rest were all sure that they would flunk the test.

so anyway, when i was talking to chye tee and lavanyah and nadia (thanks for the birthday wishes!), izzah and the rest started screaming at me and terri passed to me the pool cue that they all shared together to buy for me (thanks for the present!). she actually came back to pioneer too! it seemed like an a05 reunion, just that reuben and melody and charmaine couldn't make it. =(

after that, we all went for dinner at the burger king outlet at westmall. and guess what? we bumped into priscilla there too! so everyone went crazy and i think some of the people eating there were rather disgruntled by us! but who cares? it was really like the good old a05 days again! all the random crap and laughing after the meal. ohh god, missed it so much. i think we should all come out for dinner or something soon again!

after dinner:)

then we all left at about 9 because most of them still had work to do, mainly pw-related stuff. so terri, izzah, zhuqing and i took a train to jurong east and we met reuben on the platform there. he just finished his tuition. after that alighted at clementi station and we all went home from there.

at home, i had a cake waiting for me. apparently, my parents went to get a birthday cake for me and i felt so, so bad for reaching home so late! my apologies to both my parents and i wanna thank them too!

alrite, this entry is getting really, really long! i'd better stop before i start going on and on again! but before i go off, once again, i really wanna thank everyone! i really appreciated it! especially to izzah, reuben, terri, kristine, cassandra, charmaine and swee siong for the pool cue! and of course to my parents for the cake! ohh yes, and to nessa for the cookies! thanks alot guys! =D

Shitty Happenings

2006-05-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

okay, let me see. my life has been rather shitty so far due to a number of things that have happened recently.

1) we're out of the a divs! and the sad thing was that we bowed out on goal difference, when in fact, we could have won the AC match which would have guaranteed us qualification to the second round!
2) i've been waging a war on my parents because they've deprived me of internet in my room!
3) i've a whole stack of undone tutorials
4) i still do not understand many of the topics for chemistry, maths and econs!
5) i'm so gonna fail my chemistry test on atomic structure and chemical bonding even though i pon-ned history and econs tutorials to study for it
6) STRESS!!!
7) my gp/pw/ct and chemistry tutors are big-time fuckers (esp my gp/pw/ct)
8) i still don't know why we drifted apart
9) not that life sucks in pioneer, but it's just that i'm still feeling really sad because I DIDN'T GET INTO ACJC!!! i threw away the perfect opportunity to get into there! ARGH!!!

ohh well, i complain too much i guess. =P

Up & Running

2006-05-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

finally my internet is up and running again! so here's my apologies to those who have visited my blog time and again only to be disappointed! well, i'm back again! HAHA! okay that was like super random lah. =)

One Of The Worst Days

2006-04-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

i can very confidently say that today is a very, very bad day!

to start off, we were mauled by VJ 4-0 today. at the end of the match, morale was low and the coach was super disgruntled. but it was quite true, what he said, that the year 2s put in a below par performance today and that the play was not carried out properly.

they did improve their performance in the second half though and create opportunities, but they weren't taken at all. and one of the worst things was that we had no short corners at all! 3 more matches left in the 1st round and i believe our team can bounce back and defeat TP, JJ and AC and move on to the second round!

back at school, we were the centre of attraction. while passing the canteen, everyone were staring at us and some were even laughing! i don't understand this at all, is it that amusing that our team is actually united enough to shave all our heads?

that's still alright because we were still in a group. the worst part of it all was when we were all alone! everyone who saw me came up to me and exclaimed, "what happened to your hair?!" and i would just reply that it was for the team, which was true! oh well, this excitement will subside over time and life will carry on normally.

the worst part is just about to start. during PW, we finally got our groups. guess what, i've got the BEST group in the class! can you imagine the anguish and the disappointment that i felt and the torture i would have to endure for the next 8 months! somebody save me!

oh yes, from now onwards, i would have to reach school by 7.10 every morning to receive personal coaching from mr lim chee wan for chemistry! like duh, he's my chem tutor! i was SPECIALLY chosen because i had gotten the lowest grades in class for the recent redox and stoichiometry test. 2.5/30! can you believe that? oh well, the answer is simple, i didn't put enough effort into studying and understanding these topics! so i guess these daily morning extra lessons are blessings in disguise!

thank god, the day is finally coming to an end and this will put all the uneventful things i've experienced today behind! phew! so i do hope tomorrow will be a much better day, at least a better one than today! =D

Team Spirit

2006-04-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday something really, really big happened. well, maybe not that big, but it showed our unity as a hockey team.

it all happened at coronation plaza. due to the heavy downpur yesterday, the game against VJ was postponed and so we went over to coronation plaza for dinner.

everything went on just like a normal dinner, with the whole team joking around and jin being his usual retarded self and rovin being the "centre of attraction". but after dinner, something happened, rovin was somehow talked into getting his head shaved bald!

so we all stood around looking at him in the barber shop and i didn't know why, shah started to get his head shaved as well! it went on and on and soon, almost all the year 2s were bald! even shunting got his head shaved!

somehow, in one way or another, andy, victor, ziqi and i were all talked into getting our heads shaved as well! so it went FROM THIS!

TO THIS!

cool huh? well, i guess this is what you call team spirit! the rest got their heads shaved just before the match today.

so yes people may laugh at us, but think about it, how many teams would even be willing or united to do such a thing? so well, i guess you guys can give us credit for this!

Dry

2006-04-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

i don't know what is causing this, but my blog has been really, really dry. so dry that it'll become boring to read. i don't need people to tell me this, i know it myself.

oh well, it could be due to me losing interest in blogging or it could simply mean that my life has nothing interesting happening at all! catch your breath people.

hmm, so i guess you guys will be expecting really boring posts quite regularly about my life in school. and there'll be many, many posts about hockey! after all, that's my newfound passion!

oh darn, why did i even post this?

Very First Match

2006-04-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

today we played SAJC! sadly, we lost 5-0 and four of the goals were conceded in the second half, which coincidentally was the time when all the j1s went down to play!

i guess we did quite well, for many of us were first-timers! and the first goal of the second half wasn't supposed to be one at all! because kenneth was still gearing up and we didn't have a 'keeper at all! so it should have been 4-0.

anyway, SA wasn't as good as many of us thought they would be. i think even the year 2s could beat them! they all played much, much better than the SA team. a very optimistic sign for the A divisions.

oh yes!! the highlight of the match! somehow, while shah was trying to hit the ball into the D, his stick broke into half! a composite stick breaking into half! haha! okay, i'm amusing myself.

Ignorance

2006-04-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

ignorance is bliss, but at times it can get really frustrating too! imagine having to sit there in your room, not knowing what's happening around you at all. it sucks!

School Life For Me

2006-04-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

is this how jc is supposed to be? no time for yourself at all! well it is for me. for the past two weeks, my life has been nothing but hockey, schooling, mugging and sleeping! i hardly have any time for myself at all! sighs, for people who have gone to poly, it is probably a blessing in disguise. so for those who are complaining, stop it already!

the reason for my almost-daily training sessions nowadays is probably due to the fact that the A divisions are approaching. to be exact, the 17th of april will be our very first match. for us, we are drawn against VJC, ACJC, JJC and TPJC! of course the biggest one would be VJC! after all, they are one of the top teams in the A division, besides SAJC and RJC.

oh my god! my life has been dictated by hockey and it's almost become an obsession! i don't know at all whether to say it's good or bad. good because i'm devoted to it, bad because it's beginning to consume me and everything i do! hmm, i shall stop it about hockey already!

anyway, school has been really stagnant recently. one good thing would be the fact that i've found people whom i can talk to in class! my clique in class and they are xiuli, eileen, silei, sarah and jason! sad to say, i don't really talk to the rest. after all, my class is rather "cliquish" in a way. but of course, sadly, i only talk to them during class. during the breaks and stuff, it'll be with the hockey people (sam, shah, jin, andy, ahmad, etc), who coincidentally are the people i study with most of the time now.

somehow, i still feel very comfortable when i see the A04 people. especially casso, izzah and vanessa. they're the 3 people i talk to the most now and they're probably the people i'll feel the most comfortable with in school! A04 is really a great class! and part of it is due to all that's happening in class now. things you'll never ever see in S05 because the people there are all really nice people.

oh well, i'd better stop going on already. my very plain life is already beginning to bore some people already.

This Period

2006-03-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

it's been one week and three days since my last entry and many things have happened during this period of time.

the biggest one, of course, is me changing my sub combi! MELc to MCEh. so, yes, i'm no longer an arts student now. 06S05 is my new CT class and, believe me, i didn't have the best of starts there.

today is my second day in that class, but yet i'm still not myself at all! i guess it's because i've decided to be what you call a "solo fighter"! pretty impossible huh? but sadly, that's what i'm doing now. which is probably why i'm not enjoying my time in school at all!

besides that, this entire week has been rather physical. i've been staying back everyday for training for this entire week! but i guess it'll all pay off sooner or later and the best thing is that tomorrow, it'll be PJC vs IJC! i really hope that i'll get to play in that match!

well, i guess that's all the big things that have happened during this period of time. besides these two, it's all just the usual stuff. lectures, tutorials and all that other shitty, stressful stuff.

anyway, i think i really need to start blogging again regularly. it seems like i've become really lazy to blog nowadays! stress! oh well, i will try my best to blog regularly.

Excitement

2006-03-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, i will be sitting in a new class. of course, it'll no longer be 06A05, that class belongs to another group of people already.

for some reason, i have not seen my new ct yet. of course, i was suppose to mingle with them on the last day of orientation. and like i've said, for some reason, i wasn't there. so i suppose, all that mingling and getting-to-know-one-another thing can be done from tomorrow onwards.

that, however, does not seem as daunting a task as it was weeks ago. after all, i will still see old faces in my class. it will be nice, getting to know new people and all again, which is why i am rather excited now.

and in a way, sad too, for the very fact that many familiar faces will be gone tomorrow. but one thing i've learnt is that i need to move on. oh well, all good things must come to an end, right?

so yes, i should stop living in the past. and hopefully, my new class will be as good as the one i had before.

By Popular Demand

2006-03-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

many have urged me to place a tagboard on my blog. so after months of urging by many, i have decided to place one in my blog. and although i've seen tagboard after tagboard in the blogs of others, believe me, i'm still rather new to this. nevertheless, i hope you all can do me a favour by keeping it well-fed. it really needs to put on some weight.

Ahh, The Irony

2006-03-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

isn't it ironic? just over a year ago, both stanley and i told each other that we'll work hard and get into either st andrew's or anglo-chinese junior college. we also "made a vow" not to enter some in-the-dumps junior college like either jurong or PIONEER junior college.

can you believe it? one year later, which is today, i am in pioneer junior college! no offence to the pioneer people about the "in-the-dumps junior college" statement, that was a year ago.

but the really, really ironic thing was that the very place which i had condemned a year ago just happens to be the place i will spend my a-level days in! and believe me, i was and will be in love with this place.

this place which i hated so much in the past.

I'm Back

2006-03-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since my last entry and no, i haven't abandoned it at all. it's just that i've been rather busy lately and haven't really found the time to actually sit down and seriously blog. okay i know, this is a wonderful excuse so often used by many. so all right i'll admit it, i was just lazy to sit down and log in and just blog. but rest assured my dear, i will keep you well-fed with my un-english and full-of-grammatical-error writings.

To Let Go

2006-03-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

sad to say, everyone from my clique have moved on.

they've all gone to different places. terri to cj, melody to sa, charmaine to acs (i) and izzah and reuben might be leaving too. by then, i'll be all alone. yes, zur and the rest are staying but nonetheless, the people whom i have hanged out with the most are leaving. can you believe that? it seemed only yesterday when we started to hang out as a clique!

oh well, life goes on and people will move on. i guess charmaine was right, i have to learn to let go. we'll all meet new people and i will definitely have new friends. but that still doesn't stop me from dwelling on the fact we are all separating and going our different ways. i guess this is just part and parcel of life, not everything will have a happy ending. well, i will miss the times we've had together. the gossip sessions, the pool sessions and all that random stuff we've done together.

i wish you guys all the best and i really hope that we will hang out now and then.

Life Continues Tomorrow, Without Them

2006-03-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, we will see a different pioneer junior college.

many new faces will be there, donning the white & black uniform. maybe not so soon, but it's only a matter of time before that happens. they will join the remaining few who have either opted to stay or have no choice but to stay.

a different crowd will horde the canteen, this time with a totally different buzz. gone are the days where you see people in different shades of colour sitting together, chatting and laughing away.

most importantly, the people who will eat the food and sit the benches are no longer those that you saw in the past months. maybe a few here and there, but that feeling and buzz that we've all once felt is gone forever. you may say that the new people will still liven the place up and stuff like that, but trust me, it will never be the same again. because those people have moved on, they belong to the past now and what's left will be the remnants, the last surviving few.

i am very sure they'll know what i'm trying to say.

Some Old Poem

2006-03-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

dug this up from my old blog, some poem that i wrote from last year. doesn't really mean much, but i guess it was just a small part of my life then.

"done so often.it's become a habit.
done so often.it's being taken for granted.
done so often.it's no longer special.
done so often.it's become a certainty.
done so often.it's choking.
done so often.it's unappreciative.
done so often.it's become me.
done so often.it's stressing.
done so often.it's going into overdrive.
done so often.it's fighting a losing battle.
done so often.it's losing it's beauty.
done so often.it's losing it's touch."

Opportunity Granted, Disappointment Imminent

2006-02-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

decided to give the SA soccer teacher-in-charge a phone call today, but of course the answer wasn't at all what you would call one that will give me optimism. that was because mr roland lee (the teacher-in-charge of course) told me that it would be really, really hard for me to get into the team. there were many reasons to that. firstly, there were not enough places for me to get into the soccer team as they had to give priority to those who are there already. secondly, their soccer team is not training at all now since the field is not ready yet! but i guess because of the fact that i placed SA as one of my first choices, that's why he decided to let me go for a trial. this friday at st wilfred from 3.30 to 4.30. i am supposed to tryout for 'keeper, but there were no promises from mr lee. so i guess i really have to impress him this friday so that he will consider me. i am really, really nervous.

Twisted

2006-02-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

horror films, heavy metal music and books with morbid themes. what is happening to me?

Drums And X-Wings

2006-02-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

it could go two ways, either i skip hockey or i skip the meeting. i decided to take neither options and skip both. very simple reason, did not bother to attend O2 anymore and lazy to go for further physical training. very irresponsible and lazy of me, but nonetheless, it was carried out without guilt nor remorse. lunch was spent at mcdonald's with many of our class people around. a rare sight nowadays, considering the fact that it's always the few of us. the movie was originally on our agenda, the people who had no O2. however, things did not go as planned due to some glitches. and in the end, we proceeded to have a jolly good time at reuben's place. john was on the drums, i was on the keyboard and mouse while reuben was on the guitar. during this period of time, i was amused and rather traumatised by the tricks which reuben managed to pull. the cards just disappeared and appeared again right before my very eyes! i hate to admit it, both me and john were screaming away. anyway, to all gamers out there, you have got to try empire at war, it's part of the star wars collection by the way. so if you are looking for the ultimate star wars experience as a commander, this will be the game for you. anyway, again, my yearning for learning how to drum may be back again. i was able to finally able try out a drumset and actually play it today! reuben taught me how to do a very simple rhythm with the snare, hi-hat and the bass. believe me, it is not easy at all at the beginning. but like many things, once you get the hang of it, it'll come to you like it's part of you. pool was our next destination and it wasn't at all pleasant playing for me, i guess it just wasn't my day today. aim was off, shots all over the place and the worst part was that i was giving away fouls like nobody's business! i guess i pocketed as many white balls as i did for the solids. when everything did end, it was already half-past nine. time for us to go home. reuben took 75 and i took the usual. surprised to find my dad still out at this hour. oh well, he should be busy i guess. tomorrow will be a long day again for me. phone calls to make, school, tennis and probably champion's league in the wee hours. which reminds me that i will have to get that guitar from shawn sometime soon. i can't wait to get my hands on it.

Two Crazy Buggers, The Bottomless Pit And The Fog

2006-02-20T19:05:00.000+08:00

as usual, pon-ned chinese lessons today. when will it ever end? probably after school officially opens. but i just can't help it, chinese just doesn't turn me on. important as it may be, i just can't committ myself to attending chinese lessons. okay, this is a disease i need to get rid of, before it gets me into trouble with the school. anyway, it is agreed between me and terri just now during the free chinese period that reuben is indeed undergoing some kind of emotional trauma since saturday and, thus, he has been rather nonsensical. (no offence reuben) a perfect example would be the scandal between me and terri. it is just the most ridiculous thing that can ever happen! but of course, such rumours would spread like wildfire and now the entire class is saying that too! okay, back to what went on today. straight after chinese lessons, reuben, me, casso and terri went out to the mcdonald's outside school for lunch. thankfully for terri and casso, i and reuben were sane today and we didn't do our sauce routine we would carry out everytime we finish a meal. actually it was all right for terri, because we have seen her playing with sauces too. trust me, you wouldn't want to see it when she's at her best, it can be much worse than me, reuben and kavee put together. anyway, after the meal, casso had to go back to school and the three of us decided to go to lot 1 for a movie. we were supposed to meet cheuk and vanessa, but when we reached there, they had left already, so it was just the three of us. decided to watch the fog since there wasn't any other movies available and, since there was still time for us to spare, we decided to walk around the mall. 3:15 and it was showtime. a boring show and somehow, i was rather amused by it. reuben was bored-ded by it and i guess for terri, for half of e show she was covering her face with her jacket. haha, quite amusing actually because the show was not at all scary! (i'm so gonna get killed) after the show, we went to ya kun and ate and i tell you, terri is a bottomless pit! i don't know how she actually gets so much food into that stomach of hers and she gets hungry really quickly! the best thing is, she doesn't get fat! haha, she's just a black hole i guess. hmm, anyway, i seriously think there's something wrong with the eggs, because after that meal, both i and reuben became crazy! we just couldn't stop laughing and terri looked like she was very, very lost! it lasted all the way till the bus stop at reuben's place. but it did not end there for me. even on the bus back home, i kept going on laughing and i guess terri got it too, because she was laughing hysterical too! you guys should've seen how hysterical she was. haha. okay, i guess it was because she was more amused by my laughter. haha, i just couldn't stop. when i really did, it was while i was waiting for 173 to go home, and terri was nice enough to wait for the bus with me, while eating her green jelly of course. all right people, please don't get the wrong idea, we live near each other and both of us went to 7-11 to grab something, so that's why she offered to wait for the bus with me. nothing more than that okay, so don't think too much. anyway, that basically draws the conclusion to another normal day, a day like any other. not really dull, but then again, not really exciting.

Valentine's (Part 2)

2006-02-19T19:01:00.000+08:00

[this is a long overdue post, but nonetheless, i will have to finish this up. after all, it is the part 2.]

after going ard singapore, i decided to go home and prepare for my tennis lesson. it's at yio chu kang tennis centre, so the best option was to get home and leave it again before 3. didn't really want to rush and take a cab in the end. but guess wad, the lesson was canceled again! so instead of making the long journey down to yio chu kang, i made a shorter one to PJC. not the ideal place to go on valentine's day, especially in the midst of the jae holidays. but i became a guide, okay not exactly a tour guide, but i had to bring dee, venessa and kuanyi around the school. it turned out to be a very brief one. and after they had left, i found myself rotting with sheila and clara. well, they did have badminton training. delia joined us soon after and i left school soon after too. went to meet reuben and gang and had a couple of rounds of pool. they went home and i went to meet up with the guys to go to marina for steamboat. the food there was good, well not exactly very good, after a few rounds it was rather sick. anyway, bumped into kavee and kristine and their og there. turned out they were having their og outing! and the best part of it all was that kavee was sitting next to chappati! (shall not name her, but i guess you guys all know who she is already) well, after dinner, we went over to ven's house. me, chye tee, eng kai and weikok. of course, before that, we walked all the way to shenton way from marina just to get a cab! and guess what, in the end, we ended calling for the cabs! but it was fun walking, okay it may sound crazy to some. anyway, so we played mahjong there all the way till 4! but it was kinda lame, because there was no money involved! haha! imagine playing mahjong with no money. that's quite lame, but nonetheless, we had fun! next up was soccer. liverpool 1-0 arsenal. a result i'm proud to announce and surely, the hotcakes with sausage meal which accompanied me agreed too! anyway, after the match, it was mahjong again! but a rather brief one, because everyone was tired alrdy. so yes, it is quite a fruitful valentine's day for me. haha. and a rather fun one too.

Valentine's (Part 1)

2006-02-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

basically, while others were spending valentine's day with their dates, i spent it at a few places. let's start with the very first place i went to. SAJC. of course, i wasn't there alone. reuben, melody, delia and becky(delia's friend) also went. we were actually tagging along because becky wanted to appeal. anyway, i was really awestruck by the magnitude of the entire SA village. it was really big and the campus was really very nice. but of course, much to my surprise, the college campus itself is no bigger than the PJC campus. anyway, that didn't really matter because the campus is really, really nice. and of course, both the girls and guys are all very good-looking, especially the girls. i guess it was because of the uniform. haha. but nonetheless, it was a really nice place and i would really like to get in there. so that was when the regret started, the regret of going to visit the school. now that i am in love with it, i'll be really sad if i can't get in. but sadly, that'll be the case. after all who would, in their right state of mind, take an 18-pointer who has nothing to offer to the college into SA? right? i'm sure many people feel the way i do. sighs, sometimes, the things that you can't get are always the best. okay i really didn't mean to be so pessimistic, but even miss chua said that it'll be really hard even if i appeal. so yes, i will be staying in pioneer. okay, enough about this jc thing. anyway, the next stop was ACJC. somehow, the moment i stepped into the campus, i felt lost. i felt that people were watching me, wondering what i was doing there. a haven for those who have either wore the white/blue uniform(ACS). reuben definitely felt homely, and he was in much higher spirits than before. oh yes, talking about reuben. his friend tiffany(a very cute girl, just like many of the SA people, who happens to be his eyecandy) was nice to have brought us to the general office. and the funny thing was, reuben tripped and twisted his ankle while talking to tiffany! me and melody were just laughing away! haha. i guess he was just too mesmerised by her. so back to AC. nothing much there, just that the building's quite run down and the cafe food was not bad. so then ended my first half of valentine's day.

The Reply

2006-02-13T14:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i sent an email to the sa people about my enquiry. and much to my relief, they replied me! i was utterly surprised in a way, because i was pretty sure they would not reply me. after all, i'm just another one of those 18-pointers dreaming about entering their school. but no, the reply was somehow an encouraging one. the person did say that i was more than welcome to appeal and attach any relevant details i had to support my appeal. maybe i would do that. but then again, not that i want to be pessimistic about things, it just seems that my appeal will be ultimately chucked aside. in a corner where things are chucked to and forgotten and, ultimately, fed to the shredding machine. a rather gruesome ending to things. but whatever it is, i am already encouraged by the fact that they have even bothered to reply to my enquiry. for that, i will appeal. whether it goes through or not, it is a totally different matter already. but one thing's for sure, i will never know whether i stand a chance or not if i don't give it a shot at all. so i will do it, because i don't want to look back in the future and regret not doing it at all.

Results, Choices, Privileges And Somehow I Know What It Feels Like Already

2006-02-12T17:36:00.001+08:00

in the end, i didn't get the fairy tale ending i so wanted. why? cause i actually screwed up my O levels and got a miserable 18 points. yes, i know. i've really let myself down. and even though everyone's telling me it's okay, i don't think so at all. i don't really think many of those around me can really understand how it's like (or maybe i'm wrong), cause it's like everyone's getting below 14! how i envy these people! well, there's no point envying them cause i'm really happy for them. happy that all they've been working for, all their efforts have paid off. and that they'll be going to somewhere they wana go. for me, however, i'll have no one to blame except myself. what went wrong, i don't know. all i know is that, maybe i am not as smart as i think i am. maybe my standard is just so much, and that no matter how much my knowledge improves and how much effort i've put into studying, my grades will only be sub-standard. just like everything i do in life. a cruel and sad fact that i will have to swallow. sighs, well, gotta make my choice soon. i guess i'll try to appeal into sajc cause i'm a little disillusioned with life here in pjc. but of course, it'll take a mighty miracle to get me into that school. so yes, i guess i'm fated to stay in pjc after all. what choice do i have? sighs, and for some reason. i know that feeling that they've all been talking about. that feeling u feel when everyone around you is getting so good grades while you are the only one getting lousy grades. and that tiptoeing feeling too. haha. what to do? i'm just another one of those "cannot make it" students.

Rockopioneer & Charlie Gordon

2006-02-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

today, open house day! it was so, so much fun! okae, i'm super biased lah. i guess i felt so cause i was part of tt event. but anw, e day didnt really hv a very bright beginning. cause firstly, i was late for sch, e second consecutive day! sighs. then as usual, i fell asleep during maths lecture. i'm really hopeless, probably jc life isn't suitable for me at all! (kidding =P) okae, anw so after all e curriculum time was over, e fun began to start. 1st assignment i got for e day was........to rot at e bus stop outside pj to provide umbrellas for e ppl cmg for e open hse. wad a bummer! all thx to john of course. >:( but lucky for me, i was only at e bus stop for an hr only. cause aft tt, i was assigned back to sch. tt was when e real fun began to start for me! frm 3 onwards, i was just running abt sch finding fun stuff to do. of course, coco they all were there! but they looked kinda bored lah. i guess there just wasn't much tt appealed to them there. in fact, i felt kinda bad. cause they were just sitting ard e canteen slacking and there really wasn't much tt appealed to them. anw, e most embarrasing thing for me was e IETL presentation(charlie gordon!). not tt i screwed it up, but coco and nigu and ct and all of em were part of e small audience! i was so, so paiseh lah! and they somehow made it worse by showing me tt handsign! sighs, but i guess i could be quite satisfied with my performance. haha. of course, thanks to e late time slot of our performance, we only had to do e skit once! i was quite relieved to hear tt. =D anw, aft tt i did a variety of things be4 watching kavee's band's gig. dunk joseph, rugby, sha's band's gig and sme other stuff wich i couldn't really remember. oh well, kavee's band was gd. just tt at e ending they screwed up a lil cuz e rhythm was too fast for shawn(lead) to catch. but no matter, they did well nonetheless. of course, e climax was e mass dance segment (which included the fundance of course)! yes yes, it's always e fundance tt gets everyone hyped up. but wad to do? it's really, really too fun alrdy! haha. and tt put the full stop to rockopioneer. hmm well, tt more or less summed up my day today. haha. rockopioneer rocked!!!

Long Time Since

2006-01-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i last updated. a very, very long time. and i can only say it's due to two reasons. firstly, i've been really, really busy in school, returning hme after 8.30 everyday frm sch is not unusual. secondly, i've been rather lazy to update my blog as well. somehow, this enthusiasm for updating my blog everyday is beginning to slow down. so much for wanting to be an intense blogger, i just can't seem to accomplish it. so from now on, i'll make an effort to keep my blog updated all e time. i just gotta get tt enthusiasm back. somehow.

The Champs, The Long Ride Home

2006-01-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

today was quite an exciting day for me, even though lessons were to end at 4! well let's first talk bout lessons. gp was e first of e day and it was quite okae la, just tt our song got a small part rejected because of e explicit lyrics =x. aft tt it was maths lecture and somehow a bird managed to make its way into e lecture theater and it got everyone really amused! how wierd. anw while lessons were gog on, we were busy making fun of e maths lecturer and his breathing! (we're just so mean la) hah. but of course e best lesson of e whole day was mother tongue cause i was slping thru e whole 1 hr lesson! and even though delia kept shaking me to tell me to wake up, i just couldn't bring myself to. somehow tt classrm was just too "sleep-inducing" alrdy! hah, anw aft mother tongue, it was maths tutorial. i really think tt e tutorial was so much better than the lecture itself la. i tink many ppl felt tt way too! (mayb i'm wrong =P) after maths tutorial it was 2 hrs of lit! today's lesson was on identity and it was a really, really nice lesson. (shall talk abt it in my next entry) so tt was the end of my day in the classroom. but tts nt to be e end of my day, cause aft pe (dun wana talk bout it cuz we didnt do much anw) we had e interhse games! and of course i was on e owens soccer team. =D we were supposed to play darwin, keller, byron and polo. but our match against keller was a default win cuz many of e keller players have to go for a hockey friendly. so after we were against the other 3 hses, we got a win against darwin (our first game =DD) and we drew against polo and byron. at e end of e day, we emerged the top of the "league", which was to say, we were the champs!! woohoo!! we really played well as a team today and i really feel tt me and matthew can really click in e central defence la. which was probably why our defence was so gd today! (ahems =P) so yah, my excitement at e starting of e day really didnt turn into disappointment cuz we were the champs!! hrm, okae shall stop showing off bout it. we are the champs! okae, tts enough. anw since i was really shagged alrdy aft e game, i decided to go hme. i just couldnt go anywhere else alrdy. budden sthin really amusing happened. i slept on e bus and when i woke up, i was on the expressway alrdy. so apparently, i had missed my bus stop and this miss was a costly one, cause the next bus stop was all e way at toa payoh! can u believe tt. sighs. so instead of reaching my hse at 830, i reached it at 930. cuz the trip back frm tt bus stop was so so long! -_-zzzz. and i decided to keep myself awake throughout e entire journey bac. i didnt want to doze off again. hah. okae so tts abt it for my day, dun wana yak anymore cuz it'll be neverending! lols. i really really wana learn to play tennis!

The Earliest Ever And The Anti-Social

2006-01-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

today was the first day i reached hme frm sch so early. and i really hav to apologise to my ctg ppl for not gog for lunch with them. i was simply too tired. somehow, i just didn't really seem to be in great shape today. i think it was something i ate in e morning. or was it because e break was too long today? i dunno, somehow i just needed slp, badly. really became anti-social all of a sudden. anw i did thought of just gog for lunch with them, but then, my tired self just wanted to go hme and slp. so tt was wad i did. first thing i did when i reached hme was to shower. then, the next thing i knew was tt i was on e bed, dead alrdy. and the time was 2.35. when i woke up, it was alrdy 6. so yes, my body was indeed badly in need of slp. e rest of e day was spent rotting. so actually it was a rather boring day today. sighs. hope i'll be better tml! =D

Neoprints, Heirloom & Campus Superstars

2006-01-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

sch was rather okay today, although i did slp during e movie during e chinese lecture. i really dunno how i'm gog to finish up tt wrksheet! prob copy frm smeone else, like wad i always do before. really bad, but i hv no choice at all! sighs. anws, ct time was quite all rite. but then again, maybe i'm still quite unfamiliar with my ctg ppl, tts why i didn't really enjoy ct time. these are the ppl i will hv to live with until my o lvl results cme out! so i better start getting along with these ppl. (but there were a couple of ppl who were really irritating! sighs. i'm starting to bitch again.) okae, so sch ended aft ct time and since i was alrdy boreded out by sch, i decided to skip the research skills lecture, which according to many ppl was a gd lecture, but wad the heck. hah. so since i really had nthin to do, i decided to go for a rnd of soccer with idham and a few others. (it wasn't exactly a few others cause we were 10 against 10) okae, we did lose the "match", but it was nt bad aft all. 6-4. it was our defence tt was quite bad, cause there were only like 2 defenders (me and one fuhua guy) and a goalkeeper (baranee) against 6 whenever they counter-attacked. but those who were defending played all rite. so in the end it wasn't so bad. budden of course, as usual, there was this one fucker, who was really really noisy and really cocky and all tt other shit. he can dribble okae only, (not as gd as many of our sch ppl) and even though he wasn't tt gd, he was just so cocky tt a few of us couldn't stand him at all! wad ruiming said was absolutely rite. we played till bout 2.30 then we went for water break, and tt was when i decided to just leave sch, cause hockey training was starting and i was really wuite lazy to go for training today. (sorry hockey ppl, 1st training and i skipped alrdy) anw, so went to lot 1 to meet ven and take my shirt and e bk frm her. so since we were there alrdy, we decided to go watch heirloom. (i'll get to tt later) aft we got our tickets, we were still left with sme time, so decided to go take neoprints! so lame! hah, it was sorta my 1st time, so was uneasy and all. (yesyes ppl, i noe i'm modern and all) anw e pics turned out okae, although we did hv a hard time trying to decorate e neoprints. (so lame! =P) then aft tt, we rushed to e cinema to catch heirloom! not a really bad show, e storyline and plot was gd. but there came a twist in e middle of e show tt got twistier then in e end it gt so twisted tt it became so lame. but e thing bout e family was a gd idea la. and e girl still ended up hving e kid. (e way e cops told her was -_-"""") sighs, so those who wants a lil laughter, a lil scary stuff and a lil ...... be sure to catch heirloom! hah. anw so aft e movie, we went to ljs to hv dinner and ven decided to mugg a lil of her chem stuff while i did my student profile thingy. and it was nt until 7 tt we realised tt there was campus superstar! so we quickly rushed to e interchange and took a bus (which eventually led to two other ones) to her place. and since i sent her all e way there alrdy, i decided to just go over to her place to watch campus superstar. and it was really nice! yvonne chua (f4) was super hot la, a big contrast to tt yvonne chua frm two wks ago! all e other contestants were all rite too. e guys part i guess m1 & m4 were e better singers. hah. though they look kinda similar. hah. so sad la, i missed geraldine's performance! =( although i did see her, and of course she was chio too. anws saw lion and snowball too, and they were as cute as usual! hah. yvonne chua is so so hot can! really will faint those kind la. =DD i'm beginning to sound like a girl!

I'm In

2006-01-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

ponned sch yest and was supposed to go crash at yj yest with dee and nic, but in e end didn't. ven decided to pon sch in e morning. so lazy la. anw, so nic called me abt 10 like that and i told him we weren't gog to yj alrdy, so he decided to go wrk. somehow, i couldn't slp anymore so just woke up and rot ard hme. then ven suggested gog for a movie, e 4 of us(dee, me, nic and ven) and since nic couldnt make it cuz he was wrking, i didn't go for e show (its quite kuku if i went along rite? imagine me and dee and ven. it would be kinda extra) so decided to just stay hme and slack and prob just go gt my hair cut later in the day. but it didn't turn out tt way. firstly, gab called me and told me tt he was gog bac to bbss. since i didn't hv anything to do, i decided to go bac too. but guess wad, shee kwang called me at bout 2 (just when i decided to leave hme) and told me tt the second hockey trials was at 3! since its realli impossible for me to go bac too bbss 1st then go bac to pj, so i decided to skip bbss and go straight for my trials! and it was quite a tiring one la. first, we had to run 2.4 (my god! i tink it was 9 mths since i actually did tt alrdy). but aft tt it was quite okay, we just slacked ard in our teams and waited for our team to play hockey! hah. during which, e ogl frm inyo (i forgot his name alrdy. anw it doesn't matter rite) told me to go for e canoeing trials, which incidentally, was a 3.2 run and sme of those push-ups, pull-ups, et cetera. so i decided against the idea, cuz if i had went for e trials i would definitely hv failed! so anw, i decided to go for e tennis tryouts as well, since tennis was immediately aft hockey, n it really sucked la! they only chose 1 person out of the 20+, 30 ppl there for the trials! ( i really pity those who stayed bac just for tennis) so much for all those promises during e cca exhibition. and e worst thing was tt we didn't really finish e trials at all! sighs. so me and weiming just decided to leave sch. but be4 tt we went to check out e hockey notice board for e results and i realised tt i was in! kinda happy but kinda sad too. but nvm, i'll just join hockey and enjoy myself. it's quite fun too actually. so anw decided to go bac to bbss to catch a last glimpse of e cca open hse. and so lame la, when i went bac all e stalls were closed alrdy! so sad. but i did see hafiz and e rest and xiang an too! oh man its been ages since i saw him la! i tink 4 yrs, and he's in alex's class! such a coincidence. it's really a small world la. hah. anw so a few of us actually just had fun fooling ard and aft tt we all went to hv dinner and went hme. oh i forgot one big thing. MR NEO'S STILL AS IRRITATING AS EVER! hah. okae, i'm so evil.

[congrats to myself for making into the hockey team though i can't really play and i'm still wondering why i'm in tt list!]

The Day The Hair Turned Black

2006-01-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

went to ven's place to dye my hair yest. supposed to share e dye cuz since both of us were caught for our hair colour and had to dye it black. hah. must really thank her for her professional skills. of cuz, i had my fair share of showing my dyeing skills too. both of us really looked funny with the dye on our hair la. but somehow, e effect of e dye was too gd and both of us hv really really black hair nw! -crow on head- her's is nt so bad, (probably due to my dyeing skills) but mine was super black! somehow, i feel tt it's really like (wad u said) a crow on my head! sighs. so anw, had dinner at her place. e food was gd! esp e cheese hotdog! (okae dun get any funny ideas) after tt, watched "hot chick". my god! rob schneider is just so so lame and so so funny!! with his gay face and girly pattern! really one of e better actors ard la. adam sandler is also super lame! (egghead =D) den went hme after tt. lockie is quite cute nw la, with his bald body! if his ears were a lil bent, he would look like a puppy. snowball looks slimmer too, i guess its because of his fur. lion definitely looks bigger, and u were right! he really walks with tt sound. hah. and oh yah, otello is quite big! and she is super super hyper la! i guess she can gt e hyperest award! =P okae shall stop yakking.

Island Of Pioneerock

2006-01-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

i've decided to talk bout orientation today. yes yes, i noe i've been yakking bout it to u everynite since orientation started. but i just wana talk bout it again! cause it was just so so fun! orientation was practically super! okae here goes.

Day 1 (tues 3rd jan):

i was rather daunted by the fact tt the traffic into tt place was horrible. i guess probably it was due to all the schs in tt area and the small roads. so i had to be prepared to wake up real early every morning now. sighs. what a bummer! before reaching sch i called ven and she was on her way to sch too. i just had to call someone to "disperse" the excitement i was gog thru, sch was gog to start in another 30 mins more! but somehow, both of us began feeling really nervous and afraid as time went on. i guess it was because the excitement and anxiety was beginning to get to us and i can guarantee tt ven was feeling worse than me. cause there wasnt anyone who she knew at yj! anyway, bumped into wenny and lisi on e bus and i realised tt they were gog to pj too! so it was nt tt bad. asked them bout their results and stream and all then not long after we reached sch. saw a few other 7788 ppl there and i realised tt actually there was in fact alot of bbss ppl in pj. so i took my first steps into the pjc campus and all of a sudden my anxiety and excitement turned into fear and "nervousness". wad kind of ppl was i gog to meet? was my og ppl gog to be nice? all these silly qns ran thru my mind. for a moment i was beginning to hv second thots. but i quickly did away with these thots and trudge towards the hall. so anyway i saw gab at e hall entrance and he told me to check out wich og i belonged to. and so tt was wad i did. i was in og14. since there was nt much time left, me and gab decided to register and join our new grps. (i was so nervous tt i could feel my heartbeat just increasing!) like everyone else there, i was just sitting quietly and very uncomfortably next to my new grp mates (since we knew each other man). but i did saw lavanyah and said hi, so for a moment my "nervousness" was dispersed for awhile but it came bac very quickly again. (lame!) so for the next grueling 4 hrs, we went thru talks after talks. (so so boring!) it got so boring tt i went to e toilet to slack. (i was nt e only one) tts where i saw idham! finally someone i knew, wad a relief. then after all e talks and stuff, we had our lunch and i quickly took e chance to meet up with idham, gab and andy. it was such a relief to see familiar faces again. but lunch was very short and soon after we went back to e hall to have our mass games among our og. it was quite fun, but due to everyone being uncomfortable with each other, the games didn't turn out as they shld. finally, after the games and a round of debrief, we were released frm sch. and tt was how my first day passed. very uncomfortably.

Day 2 (wed 4th jan):

i cant believe it, second day of college and i'm late for sch! even though i took a cab, (which costed me 7 bucks! urgh! all thx to the dumb jam) i was still late for sch. and by 2 mins! and whats worse i was caught for my coloured hair. how shitty can things get. sighs. so after mr chua (e fking discipline master) released, i made my way to e hall and again sat dwn uncomfortably with my grp ppl. then there was another round of talks again, (sighs!) which totally boreded me out. then after it was all finally over, we had a college tour! i was rather excited bout it u noe. somehow, i began to open myself a little by talking to sme of e guys frm my grp (we had gotten to noe each other a lil bit at lunch on e 1st day) and the ogl (irene) who was walking with us at e back of the queue. asked her bout alot of stuff. sub combi, cca, et cetera. but when i asked her bout canoeing, she was super enthu bout it. cuz she's frm canoeing too and they are desperately trying to recruit more freshmen into the team, so she kept persuading me into joining the team. anyway, the college tour was rather brief and it ended within half an hour when it was scheduled to be one hr. straight away aft tt, we had another round of mass games. this time i was beginning to enjoy it a lil bit more, but i still felt wierd. nvm bout tt, so we had a really short break just be4 we went for our introductory lectures to e diff subs and it was quite okae. of cuz, e four of us sat together at e lecture. (idham, gab, me, andy) decided to go for econs and chem lecture, even though we werent really paying attention. incredibly, there are some really motivated ppl who took dwn notes to all e things shown in the lectures. straight after, we had our lunch and we ate again! (my god, we're such pigs!) oh yah and i forgot to say tt pj canteen food tastes quite horrible. okae. anw, after tt was e best thing of e whole day. e ogls introduced us to our clans (WALLA!WALLA!WALLA!) and each clan's ogl actually put up a performance and the lamest part was the pirates (the fast food pirates). hyuk hyuk! they actually got their pirate suits on! so so lame. so the story went like that:

"once, there were 6 wise ppl who survived a shipwreck and they floated to the island of pioneerock. each had a special skill. (of course each skill represented a clan) but then there were six pirates who wanted to spoil their plans of making island of pioneerock e best place ever and they were called the fast food pirates. so it is up to you (J1s) to stop the pirates from harming and destroying this island."

i tink it went like tt. i'm nt sure too. so we all had tons of laughter and e pirates were really so so lame! haha! okae. enough bout pirates. anw after our "pirate encounter", we had our own og time and icebreakers. played really really lame games la. forgot the names alrdy, but it was quite fun. and it really brought our og a lil closer nw. and finally, time to go hme! before tt we got our orientation packs. so cool! there was our orientation tee, a towel, a lecture pad and a shoe bag. it was very nice! really didn't expect the orientation pack to be so cool! then aft a rnd of debriefs, we were dismissed! finally!

Day 3 (thurs 5th jan):

finally, i made it to sch just in time for the morning bell. thx to my dad of course =P. and e first item of e day was e cca talk! woohoo! finally, one subject wich would turn me on! but i was quite sad when i heard e talk, cuz there was no soccer in pj! although i knew it beforehand alrdy but it was still quite saddening. sighs. anw aft tt was e lamest. we had to learn our college anthem! okae pj's college anthem sounds nice. but e process of learning it was really wierd. hah. but in e end it was a success and everyone knew how to sing the college anthem alrdy! -claps- =D. then we went on to hv our break. by today we're all really best of frens alrdy, so there was no need at all for anyone (me included) to go find their sch ppl. as usual aft the break was another rnd of introductory talks. this time i went for e lit one while andy, gab and idham went for maths. and i bumped into huaqian there! such a coincidence! didn't noe she was taking lit too. but i accidentally dozed off while e lecturer was talking to us bout e lit stuff. felt so bad =P. anw went for phy for e second talk. i really didn't noe what i was doing there. but sthin really embarrassing happened at e phy lecture theater. i don't really wana talk bout it, but i guess aft tt incident e phy teacher will recognise us frm nw on! (thank god i'm nt doing phy) again, aft all e talks it was lunch. by now, i was beginning to appreciate pj food. prob it wasn't so bad after all. straight aft lunch it was our cca open hse! there were a few cca booths there. but e sad thing was tt e merit ccas didnt hv their booths there! so we couldnt find out much. since there wasnt soccer, i decided to go for sthin new. i actually signed up for tennis, hockey and odac! being enthu and all. of course there will be trials. heh. next up was e best thing of e day, the station games! but it had to rain! the weather was such a party pooper! alvin (councillor) was quite nice though. it wasn't his fault at all, yet he came to apologise for us nt being able to play the station games. (three cheers for ogls! =D) but we did play part of e games and got wet after all. and there was one game where we had to strip our shirt off so that e game task can be done! so kuku la. hah. anw we did hv fun! after tt was a lil bit of clan time and washing up. and then it was mass dance time! mass dance was really really fun! and it was only this time tt i realised tt john and joseph were twins! i thot i've been seeing double all along, but they were twins. hah. anw, mass dance was fun, but i keep getting e steps wrong and my beat wrong too. so ya, it wasn't very successful. tt was e last item for e day.

Day 4 (fri 6th jan):

e second last day of orientation. for many others, it was to be their last day. e first thing for e whole day would be the principal's dialogue session. i was realli excited bout this as i dunno wad is it all abt at all. but at e same time, i was afraid it was going to be like another one of those boring talks. but at e end of e day it turned out fine. and it had so overwhelming a response tt e principal had to stop us frm giving any more suggestions. (mine wasn't even read out!) anyway we had our break aft tt. den it was song and cheers session! e theme song was all right but we had to do e ice kachang dance! so so lame! but it was still quite fun. heh. everyone (j1s and j2s) were all so high. but it was just so-so only. we had lunch after tt, and after lunch was e fundance! tt, i think, was e climax of e day. e fundance was so so fun! and it was great, i realli loved it. and so did everyone else! nw everyone was super super high! e instructors were great! hah. immediately after e fundance was lunch and clan time. den came e highlight of e day. treasure hunt. leon by then had to go for band. so stanley took over, and he is a really high! not only tt, he is definitely one of e most "self-high" ppl in e orientation! hah. anw our grp was really united and motivated lah. we really did e treasure hunt as a grp and although we didn't win anything, we were very happy alrdy. cuz we did our best and most importantly we did it as a grp! and one more thing, i realised tt our grp was also very very high! okae everything's getting high. lame. so tt was e second last day of orientation. it was getting more and more fun. but to think tt it's e second las day is quite saddening =P.

Day 5 (mon 9th jan):

finally, the last day is here. sch will officially start in two days. but nvm bout tt. it's time to enjoy and get high! e first thing of e day of cuz was serious stuff. after submitting our sub combi forms, we had talks on e library and student leadership. (as usual, i almost dozed off) luckily, there was a break. so i decided to hv my breakfast and it was a rather hearty one. hah, i'm such a pig. so it was songs and cheers again aft tt, but not for long. we were going to hv a water bomb fight! so the three clans: walla, keala, nootka assembled at e field and there was a humongous water bomb fight. during which, stupid idham came to rugby tackle me and i fell into the big big puddle of mud! but it was quite fun, it's been a really long time since i got so muddy and stuff. so kinda miss tt feeling. (i sound so psycho la!) straight after tt, we had an hr break to change and wash up. it felt so gd to be in a new set of clothes again! so anyway, we had our fundance and mass dance revision. (of course everyone enjoyed e fundance more, but e mass dance was fun too!) aft all e dancing and hving fun, we had a brief og time before gog for lunch. im really getting used to pj food by this time. hah. so after lunch it was clan time and campfire preparation. so paiseh during clan time la, i was actually picked out by celest to entertain e clan while waiting for two other ogs! luckily, jorene came out and told everyone lame jokes while i just stood there and became an audience. (so sry to sabo u jorene! =P) so it was decided, our dance theme was "that thing you do"(did i gt it right?) by the wonders. and since leon didnt really noe e dance, we decided to reveal our mortals and spoke of our reflections towards the orientation. (we actually "tied" leon up. so lame!) and when time was up, we went to e hall and just slacked there while e ppl decorated the mascots for our clan. (david looked great in his nemo outfit!) then all of a sudden, mcdonalds came! our dinner! and guess wad was after dinner? the grand finale! okae we didnt have a real campfire, but hey the makeshift one was really nice too! hah. everybody was so high! e atmosphere was electrifying and i'm sure those who came to crash thought so too! and i was "lucky" enough to get picked to go up and lead walla in e cheer! so paiseh la. evryclan had to send a rep to go up and lead a cheer, and so, me sui chang and weiming were the 3 frm walla! so after the cheers the mascots went up and the performances officially started. every clan had a really gd performance, but somehow it was our clan's performance which got everyone to their feet and dancing together! after every performance ended, we had our chicken dance, mass dance and most importantly, fundance! so so shiok! everyone realli danced out loud la! of cuz after tt was the prize-giving ceremony and every clan got a prize, so this shows tt everyone are winners! after everything we were supposed to hv another rnd of dance, but patrick tong put a stop to everything cuz it was late alrdy, so sad la! we all had wanted to do e fundance again, since this might be e last time we'll be doing it again. but since mr tong wanted us to stop, then too bad lor. so tt was e end of e campfire. and effectively, e end of our orientation! it has really been so fun. oh yah, i forgot one really big part. e pinning of e collar pins! e scene was so emotional. many ppl cried! (leon and stanley cried too) sighs, we were nt allowed to even hv a grp debrief cuz patrick tong cme over and "wad did i tell u guys?". wad a party pooper. =( so we all got out of sch and didnt have our fotos taken. sighs. so in e end, after everyone went off, me sui chang and weiming stayed back and waited for e walla ogls to go for supper outside sch. and so, when they came out, we went to e mac at cckcc and had a walla supper! (3 of us felt kinda out of place. heh =P) so tt was how our orientation ended. i'll really really miss orientation and all e fun i've been thru!

It's Ended

2006-01-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

orientation was officially over yesterday. so so sad. enjoyed orientation thoroughly la. sighs, but all things hv to come to an end rite? really. over the past few days i've really come to realise tt our grp is one of the best in the orientation (okae this source is biased). but seriously, our grp has so much life tt it seems tt it's never-ending! and i of course was rather high, actually i tink e highest guy in e grp. sighs. i'm gonna miss e orientations alot. though we'll still see each other in sch, but e lessons and lectures all end at different timings, so i guess it wun be so often anymore. e ogls of course were great! and we all had fun together. i'm really really gonna miss e orientations alot. shall not yak anymore as it is really late alrdy. gonna go slp nw. yawns. talk bout orientation and e ppl i've met some other time. for now, i hope tt e lectures will be all right tml.

2006-01-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

it will never be the same again

college life has been gd so far. but somehow, i miss my life in 2005. and everyone. and i noe tt it'll not be the same at all anymore. gone are the days when we cluster in one big grp behind the class and hear the guys talk bout their adventures in the internet gaming shops. gone are the days when we go to kap and sit dwn with tt same grp of ppl and mug for the same things. and most of all, gone are the days when i wear tt beige-top and grey-bottom uniform and walk into tt place where i've spent 4 yrs of my life. tt very special place. those days hv become history. and we'll never find them back again. somehow, everyone will just drift away frm each other and even if we do get together again one of these days, it wun be the same anymore. in a way, tt is a sad thing. it's nobody's fault, ppl hv to move on. and when they do, they meet new ppl and they lose the old ppl they knew. it's a cruel reality which everyone faces. and sometimes when we tell ourselves tt we can gather often and meet up, we are just deceiving ourselves, in a way. cuz at e end of the day, e present matters more to us than the past. so there goes my life of 2005. it will never happen again. to me or to anyone else or ever again. cuz like any other things, it is a form of life itself and in a way, it is unique and special. it will happen only once, once in all eternity.

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2006-01-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

bore

the weekends were boring. and i do mean it. although i've just been attending college for 4 days, i've realised that staying at hme is so so boring. the holidays were beginning to return, and i'm really glad that tml is sunday again. i noe tt college life will nt be this way all e way. once sch has started, everything will prob be much worse than wad i've experienced during e o's. but for the time being it's really funfunfun!

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2006-01-03T18:10:00.000+08:00

what a day

today was the official first day of my pre-unversity education life. to start with, i was posted to pjc. so today was e very first day of my orientation, and it was a really GREAT day. firstly, i thot tt it would be action-packed and full of fun, joy and laughter. after all, it was e first day of sch. but it didn't turn out tt way. frm 8.30-12.30 we were made to sit in the hall while e different subject heads introduced their various subs. what a way to start jc life right? sighs. nvm bout tt. after tt it was our lunch break, and i can't believe tt they actually allowed 31 OGs to go dwn and hv lunch at one go! the canteen was bursting lah. after tt it was games. first we played "earthquake, hunter, fire" which was super lame. u're supposed to hv two ppl holding hands and forming sthin like a bridge, they r the trees, then there will be a person squating under this bridge, tts the squirrel. when fire is shouted, the trees run, when earthquake is shouted, everybody run, when hunter is shouted, the squirrel runs. okae, very lame. but e second game is so much more lame. we did e chicken dance. -_-""". and they actually expected everyone to dance and look like kukus. hah. super super lame. but e last game was better. we crushed newspaper and had a fight with the other team. hah. sounds real lame right, but tt was my first day at pjc. =D

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2006-01-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

why are u so conservative?

wad is it tt i've said tt's wrong? i mean it was just an innocent joke! you didn't have to fking flare up just because you couldn't take the joke, and then start taking it out on me just because you tink tt i've just "thrown ur face on e floor thoroughly" rite. i mean dun be such a stick in the mud! u only think abt ur own pride. and do u noe why i cant relate to u abt things and tell u abt wad i want n wad r the problems im facing? it is precisely because of this. i can talk to her very well because she's really open and i can open up abt things when i talk to her. i hope tt after wad i told u in ur face just nw, u do realise the fact tt i cant relate to u abt things at all. dun blame me, cause it's your personality tt has brought abt this in me. so pls, get rid of ur "conservative shell" , or else days will be quite horrible when we face each other now and then. i noe i shouldn't be bitching abt u and it's really bad, but i just can't help it. u're just such an irritant!

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2006-01-01T03:50:00.001+08:00

the very first

i realised tt i've been a really bad big brother, and quite a useless one. the wallet i bought for my brother as a birthday/christmas present is the very first present i've ever gotten him ever since he cried his first cry. every year without fail, i'll definitely pass his birthday off and not get him a thing at all. what a useless brother i am right? so this time i decided not to hesitate, and get him tt wallet(since his was all torn and tattered). hah=P and i did feel a sense of satisfaction. tt i've finally done one small part as a big brother. kinda lame thought though it seems. heh=P.

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2006-01-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

the welcoming

as i stood there in front of the building that has stood there for over a century, i felt a surge of excitement. for the yr 2005 is finally writing the last chapter of it's 365 day lifespan. as the minutes countdown and the horde prepares for the celebration of the coming of the new yr, i stand there, thoughts and feelings run thru me. how has my yr fared? wad hv i achieved this yr? wad r the significant things tt hv happen to me? and the things and ppl tt have brought abt such big changes in me? all these thoughts revolved and revolved in this narrow yet deep vessel placed in the middle of my skull. i decided to not think abt these and to enjoy the magnificent display of fireworks in front of me. this was a sign. a sign of the passing of 2005 and the coming of 2006. the clock has struck twelve. and the earth we call hme has just completed another revolution ard the ever-so-bright sun. it lasted for abt a quarter of an hour before everything ended. and so there it was. 2005 has left my life, dead and without a trace. with it, i leave my memories, good and bad, buried within the far reaches of my mind. so what will this yr hold for me? what memories will i hv to bury along with the demise of this yr cme 31st of dec? the answers are there for me to find out. for nw, i just hv to continue my journey out of teenhood. as i trudge into the seventeenth yr of my existence, i can only hope for the very best. tt this yr will be, as eventful, and as exciting as the very year. of 2005.

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2005-12-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

the final touches

my room is completed! spent e whole day shifting tables and all tt stuff tt r supposed to be and not to be in my room(tts why couldn't be at town early). thanks everyone who helped out(basically it was my whole family and my maid). hah. and i seem to have done one of e least when it is my rm! so guilty! hah=D. gog to town nw with nic to get sme stuff i haven gotten and ven just called to say tt she got e wallet alrdy cause she has to be hme alrdy and so cant meet up with us, so i just have to pay her the money. erm kinda wierd cause i was supposed to get tt wallet. hah. so paiseh lah. heh=P. oh no, i'm running late alrdy. better leave e hse. hah=D

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